heyy , guys , i got a story . i've kept this for so long . actually this is about a friend of mine whom i think that she doesn't even care about my heart . even she says sorry , she'll did it again . tapi ini untuk kawan2 sayee yg laen jugekk . its just for an information for all of my friends who didn't related with the story of mine , becuz SOMETIMES they did made me mad . but SHE always did it . i began the story with . . . nowadays , my heart oftens ill . i don't know why . everyday , i'm goin' to be moody . everyday i'm goin' to be soo touching . does anyone know why i'm like this nowadays ? no ones know . i also don't even know . i've lived for almost 14 years but why i still don't know the true myself ? only Allah knows . He knows everything . right ? yahh . my friends often said this to me 'atira mara la' OR 'atira kau mara ke?' . i know u guys dislike i'm being moody or touching . but i did furious with them . but is not like i want to be furious . then i'm thinking , 'i'm angry with them? idk .' nowadays , i sort of dislike jokes that my friends did . i think their jokes was disrepectful . i think their jokes challenge my patience . everyone have their limited of patience . isn't it ? i try not to be angry with them , but , their jokes ? it hurts my heart . i didn't say my heart is hurt when they joking about myself . i just laugh with no sincerity . but my heart IS hurt . they laughed so happily . i let them be . i let them joking about myself . becuz they're my life , if they gone , then my life also gone . so , why should i mad with them right ? its just the jokes . sometimes i think that doesn't have a friend would be nice . but , i really can't leave them behind . they're my friends . even they did wrong , i just shut my mouth . so that they wouldn't feel bad . they didn't say sorry . i don't mind . every seconds , every minutes , every time , i forgive them . i know i did a lot wrong to them too . i know everyone is not perfect and made mistakes . i knew it . if u guys want to continue being like this . its up to you . idm . i'll repair my heart on my own . i know if u guys read this , u guys will be mad with me becuz i wrote something that is private on the public . idk to whom i'm going to tell this secret . so i just wrote it on my blog . is not like i don't respect u guys as my friends . but this is my expression of liver . i know that , not all of my friends have to think about my heart . but please think a bit , just a bit about my heart . my heart can cracks easily . and my heart can be repaired easily too . i'm truly soryy to all of my buddies . i know i did a lot wrong with u guys . again , i'm sorry .
rozi,fara,lisa,wanie,zaty,myra,intan,fatini,shera . sorry gile if bende yg aku tules ni buat korg kecil hati.kalau korg nak ngutok aku sbb aku cite bende ni kat blog aku , korg kutokla . aku tak kesa . takpelahh wehh even kalau korg kutok aku gile2 atau maki2 aku atau khianat aku atau korg tipu aku , korg tetap kawan aku yang aku sayang .sesungguhnya , aku bukanlah seorang kawan yang baik . so korg bole kutok aku , sebab aku MEMANG JAHAT kenn . .
