him . again . :'(

ohh Allah , i don't want this feeling . this feeling . it hurts me badly . Please Allah . i think ,  he's not going to be mine , and never be mine . so , please erase this feeling . i hate this feeling . if he's going to be mine someday , let this feeling grow . but if he's not going to be mine , erase this feeling . please Allah . i beg You . please . i don't want to expect anything from him . cuz i know i would never get it . so please erase this feeling . i really really beg You .